Stuck...

Found out that I'm in the list for the JPA interview.

How I feel?

I don't really know.

Very conflicting I guess.

Why?

Well... There's a part in me that kinda hope I didnt get it. Coz I was thinking maybe going to Form 6 can give me some more time to think of what I really want.

Stupid?

Maybe...

There're too many things to think of!

Nearly fall apart just now.

Coz I'm lost. Again.

Although I've already made my decision, I'm still scared.

Scared of making the wrong decision.

Scared of the pressure I'm gonna face.

Scared of I may not have what it takes to get there.

Scared of what will be my future if I luckily get there.

Gosh... Can someone please tell me what I should do?

Then... Something hits me.

The funny thing is, after I spent some moments thinking of this and that, I told myself, "Hello~? If you don't try, how will you know? If you really try and then find out that it's not suitable for you, you still can change your path. At least you will not regret knowing that you have tried your best to reach your dreams."

Something I told myself. To prevent myself from thinking way too much. lol...

Sometimes... I really over think it. I remembered there was once a time I told myself 'Girl, you're gonna get melancholia(depressive disorder) oneday.' Hah~ XD

Well... Follow the wind and see where it takes you. That's what I'm gonna do.

And heard this when watching a show today.

"Life is simple. You make a choice, and you don't look back."

Quite true.

[But sometimes it's hard to do so. xP]